I ordered an urn today.
I never imagined I would be doing this again.
Picking out an urn. Again.
Signing orders for a death certificate. Again.
Emptying the clothes from the changing table. Again.
Sobbing these deep, uncontrollable sobs. Again.
Feeling empty inside. Again
Dealing with the empty arm ache. Again.
Adjusting to a life without my baby who should still be here. Again.
Mothering a child I didn’t get to keep. Again.
I shouldn’t be here again. But here I am. And I will do everything I can to insure that both of my babies are remembered. Always.
Liam Marshall Snyder 01/06/2020-02/17/2020
Lincoln Everett Snyder 12/22/2015